Breathing the Wholeness of Turning 35.

October 30, 2017

Oldie photo from my birthday 2 years ago

I am an October girl at heart.

October brings this very unique golden light, deep blue autumn skies and warm sunshine days to soak in before the colder days arrive. The trees are in festive mode, giving us a firework of colours before they transform for winter. It is my favourite time of the year and those golden days are sacred. I have this strong connection to Autumn.

I am an October girl at heart after all.

I turn 35 today. Another trip around the sun. Birthdays bring me into celebration and reflective mode. Looking back on 34 and my thirties. Always with a deep joy and gratitude for the magnificence of being alive.

It feels like a big number. I’m not exactly where I thought I would be. Does that place even exist anyway? Was that even a dream of mine or society’s? Not even sure what it looked like anymore but a vague image. I thought I’d be an adult by now. Still not feeling like one. But maybe no one ever really feels like one? There are still a lot of things I want to achieve, ideas and projects I want to bring to life. Places to explore. Moments to live. Adventures to create.

But no matter what the outside stuff looks like, I can’t help but feel this deep gratitude for life. I am here. Alive. Vibrant. Healthy. I am free. I am surrounded by my loved ones and friends and am pursuing my dreams. I am the crazy auntie to my two koalas, niece and nephew, that I love with all my heart. I wanted more freedom and went for my dream. I  get excited about life’s adventures and taking the road less traveled. I embrace the messiness. Rebels run in my blood. I have no clue where I’ll be in a year and it’s pretty exciting. I go sometimes from moments of excitement and moments of panic and that is ok. It’s just the rollercoaster and privilege of living on this planet. Even though sometimes life can feel slow and like I haven’t achieved much. I also feel a deep joy to be in this body, living this life.

I know that the one thing I want to do well in this life is Love. Give love. Receive love. To myself, my family and friends, to my past and current loves, to the people who crossed my path somewhere along the way and to the other humans sharing this planet at the same time as me.

Living in the present moment with a deep trust that things will always turn out well as I have my own back.

I have done lot of work on myself, to discover who I am what I am made of. Stardust, right? I will always be a student of life. Learning, growing, expanding. In relationships, business, friendships, love and within me. I have loved my thirties so far. Looking back I realise how much expansion and growth happened in the past six years. How I created the space to become the person I am today.

My twenties were a lot about exploration, fun, living in the moment, discovering love and the world but also including heartbreaks, despair and total confusion. I’ve been so far lost that I can barely remember that 26 year old me. My 35 year old me would tell her to breathe, to keep feeling all the feels, that nothing ever stays the same, that the deep pain she is feeling right now is creating the ground for her dreams to take shape and coming to life. That the light always comes back. And that you need darkness to see the stars. This pain of heartbreak, of not fitting in, lacking direction, purpose and confidence built the ground for my wildest dream to take shape. Those years planted the seeds that started growing and showing signs of life at 29.

So much has changed since those years. It feels so distant, so foreign. I’ve learned to love myself unconditionally. I am whole. I am my wildest adventure. I am ok not fitting in. I no longer seek validation outside of myself. I soak in the freedom and love I created for myself.

35 feels like a big number but at the same time I feel my spirit is younger than ever. Maybe because there’s a lightness that comes with being aligned with my soul.

I am also seeking a deeper truth. About life. About myself. Realising my worth is not linked to my bank account, my achievements, if I have a partner by my side or not, if I become a mother or not. I am not the likes on my social media. I am not what people think of me. I am not my thoughts. Just being me is enough.

There is no perfect time. No time when I’ll feel totally ready for the next step. I just need to bring trust to the equation. A deep expanding trust for life and keep showing up as I follow my heart.

I am seeking depths. Who am I? What is my essence? How can I contribute to the world to make it a better place, a more loving one?

What part of my story can I let go? What stories have I been telling myself for years that have never been true or are no longer aligned with the way I want to live my life?

I am still learning to navigate the ups and downs of life. One wave after another, getting wiser.  Staying present. Bringing intuition and my heart wide open on this journey. Because the whole reason of being here is to learn to live with an open heart I believe.

I am kickstarting 35 surrounded by people I love, with projects that bring all the excitement and fear up but also the bold and fierce lion within me, knowing I’ve got this.

I am excited and filled with joy at the million possibilities that is just around the corner. I get to create the life I want. Sometimes it feels like I’m just realising this, and some days it feels like it’s something I’ve always followed and cultivated. I am enough. I can take a deep breathe in. Full of gratitude. Exhaling with contentment.

How golden is this life?

Stories About Freeing the Body and Heart

September 12, 2017

 

 

As I walked to the yoga shala, barefoot, in the midst of rice fields I could feel the hot humid day on my skin, surrounded by lush greens and a volcano in the background, on a late balinese afternoon. I was about to take a private dancing healing session and felt a bit nervous not knowing exactly what to expect. I had taken dance classes in the past- african and salsa mainly or dancing in clubs during my twenties. This time, I was alone with this wonderful intuitive dance teacher about to experience something quite different and powerful, that would change my perception of my body.

 

I didn’t quite realise the full power of my own body until this moment. Not so much in its strength, but in the capacity of holding and releasing my stories.

 

I had booked a private session with her as I could feel strong emotions coming to the surface while dancing with the group the previous day- in between yoga classes and anatomy lessons, we were offered a dancing movement class. Using movement as therapy. In that moment, I realised how much emotions and past stories are stored inside the body. We’re so used to hold on to feelings of discomfort, sadness, hurt, anger, worries, unspoken words. Trapped energy. We store them so well, deep down that we manage to live without too much attention. Not being fully present within our bodies. Not always listening to our bodies.

 

Through the dancing and meditation that day, I released parts of me that were scared to be expressed. I took space. I realised some of my blockages. I shed tears. Freeing my body so I could let my heart expand.

 

I was letting my body flow and move freely.

 

In a world where so much attention is put on our brains, thoughts, we tend to forget the power our bodies hold. The subtle parts of our bodies.

 

Sometimes all the heart crave is movement and restoring this deep connection within ourselves.

 

To come back home. To sensations. To feelings. To find our wild. This deep feeling of expansion where we get to experience a special kind of freedom. To celebrate life.

It happened again this summer as I experienced a moving meditation while in Portugal. Shaking my body, dancing to the music, eyes closed. Feeling this expansion within my chest, taking up space, tuning inwards. After some time, I was in my own bubble. Tuning in to all my senses. The openess of my body, the peace, the connection between my body, heart and soul. When you prepare your body, by moving, losing yourself with movements, it opens up this energy that allows a sort of high vibe, prana- life force energy. When you open up to receive; messages, thoughts, images, visions, sensations, a strong knowing or intuition can flow through you.

 

 

What you can experience though dancing and meditation:

+ Acceptance
+ Creativity
+ Free expression through movement
+ Releasing tension and stress
+ A sense of joy, relief, calm, peace, freedom, aliveness, connection
+ Increase energy
+ So much more

 

 

If you want to experience a deeper connection with your body and soul, I am hosting a wild-hearted dancing session on Saturday 16th, at 10.30am, at Cabinet 22, in old town Geneva.

Still some spots left, sign up by email: marisa@wildhappyheart.com or FB message.

Bringing Your heart Into Your Business and Life

August 4, 2017

Photos by Hayley Richardson

Three months ago, I hopped on a flight to London town. Excited and eager to learn all things business, but not your usual business entrepreneurs workshop on how to make 6 figures type. This 2-day workshop was everything aligned with the way I do and want to grow my business.
Connected. Aligned. Creative. Flow.
Back in February, when I first heard about Vienda Maria & Claire Baker coming together in London to create this little magic, I felt this intuitive and heart fluttering sensation that was very distinct and clear. I had to be there.
 
Throughout the years I learned to connect and recognise those little intuitive signs that always lead me to some kind of magic and unique life moments.
 
As a yoga teacher, writer and wellness coach who had to learn and is still learning about how to create a business from scratch, that is aligned with me and thriving, I find it so essential to be surrounded by people- and mainly women- who inspire and live the same lifestyle that I do. The connection, support and inspiration I receive from my local and online business mavens has been essential for my growth. Starting and running your own biz is overwhelming, intense, freeing and amazing all at the same time. Having to find your way and take steps towards your big vision and usually learning along the way is no easy task but so rewarding. And The Heartful Biz online workshop that is coming soon is covering all the essentials to create and run a business that comes from the heart.
 
I’ve been following, learning and admiring Vienda and Claire for years as they built their businesses in a way that embody their lifestyles. I think that’s why I’ve been drawn to them in the first place. They are free spirited, connected, heart aligned and not afraid to create a life on their own terms while being in tuned with their own rhythms -let it be in connection with the moon or the menstrual cycle.
 
The Heartful Biz was definitely one of my highlight so far this year- you can read the stories I wrote during the workshop over here and here. All the content and connection with badasses women living life aligned with their heart with freedom and purpose at the center stage.
 
It reignited my fire to bring more soul into my work, to show up and not being afraid to be seen.  To create and launch my first online program, making yoga videos, to show up on insta stories, and not holding back from bringing my true nature into my business even if it’s different than others in the field. It showed me ways to bring structure and organisation to my work while still being in flow with my feminine side.  I had resistance for a long time around structure thinking it would take away my freedom, but I’ve witnessed and experienced the opposite effect. From creative ways to use social media, to building a community and listening to our own internal rhythms as well as bringing our hearts and unique touch to our projects, these two women brings a new approach to business and life. It confirmed that creating a business that is aligned with who I am and on my own terms is possible and just at my finger tips if I’m willing to show up whole-heartedly.
 
I know some of you were curious about this workshop and all the things I learned, and with the huge demand for an online version of this live workshop, they created an online 2-day workshop of the London event so everyone gets to join, connect and grow their business, the heartful way. Another example of how they connect with their tribe and get into action to create something that is valuable and enriching for so many of us.
 
It’s happening August 12th and 13th. If you’ll be surfing waves (like me! ) or on summer adventures at this time don’t worry as it’s a do-it-at-your-own-pace course so you can join in at anytime.
 
If you’re a yoga teacher, a coach or a self-employed superwoman, I can only recommend this a thousand times as it’s been life-changing for me. As I’ve been part of the first London live workshop, I get to participate and join again (I can’t wait!) and I also became an affiliate as I truly stand behind these two women and their content, creative work as they are a true and living example of having a heart-driven business.
 
Have a look here, if this speaks to you.
 
Close your eyes, breathe in and out, how does it make you feel- the thought of taking your business to the next level, connecting with a tribe of women who share the same passion of freedom, connection and purpose. Women who gets it. When women come together, they can accomplish amazing things. I wouldn’t be where I am today without the fierce and bold women in my life who supported, encouraged, inspired, showed me the way in some way or another.

 

Follow Your Curiosity

February 9, 2017

“Just play and see where it takes you!”

A friend tells me in the middle of a conversation about music and my desire to get familiar with the guitar. He encouraged me to start playing the guitar as I mentioned I always loved it and was something that would float in the back of my mind for years. So I borrowed my brother’s guitar and started to put my fingers on the strings. Just for fun. A week later, I told my friend, ” It’s fun and I love it, but I need to be able to play a song by this time…” And then I realized that was not really what I was looking for initially -setting goals around my very first guitar days. I don’t need to achieve anything with my guitar. I’m after the feelings it’s creating.

Peace. Stillness. Pleasure. Presence. Curiosity. Fun. Experience.

We’re so brainwashed by our society to achieve goals and do things that will get us somewhere.

Even though I’d love to be able to play Ben Howard’s songs one day by the fire on a snowy day, (yeah I’m a dreamer!) I’m not chasing a goal to check it off my goal’s list. I’m letting my curiosity guide me. Maybe my guitar days will be over in a few weeks or maybe it will take me somewhere. Who knows?! It’s been a month and I still pick up the guitar everyday- to my surprise. Not that I’m getting much better at it but I enjoy it and it relaxes me and I’m learning the chords in the process.

Adulting kills curiosity and creativity. We stop playing, exploring, creating, discovering, the minute we’re out of school. Imagination wears off. We think it’s a waste of time, that it won’t get us anywhere or that we lack talent.

I follow my curiosity with different things. Painting. Crafting. Interior design. Writing. Reading. Dancing. Movies and documentaries.

Curiosity lead me to study nutrition and become a health coach. It lead me to yoga and exploring the world and my own mind.

There is so much to explore, experience and create.

Create.

To bring into existence.

Creativity leads to more freedom. It opens your mind to other worlds. It deepens your connection to yourself. It brings joy.

Think of when we were kids. Care free. Wild. Being creative was part of our every day life. Creating stories, games, choreographies and so much more. We could spend days creating and exploring, being lead by our curiosity. How happy and in the moment were we?

“Don’t let anyone rob you of your imagination, your creativity, or your curiosity. It’s your place in the world; it’s your life. Go on and do all you can with it, and make it the life you want to live.”

Mae Jemison

Where is curiosity leading you at the moment?

Did your curiosity lead you to a passion, a lover, career or simply more joy in your daily life?

Possibilities are endless. How exciting is that?!

Winter Energy

February 2, 2017

 

I love the connection with the seasons. Every season, I realize a bit more the meaning and goodness of each one and its impact on my body and soul.

Winter has a purpose.

For me winter is filled with gezellig- hygge vibes. That warmth and cosiness contrasting with the temperatures outside. You get to flow between the two worlds.

I haven’t felt that big high of new year energy in January. Usually September “back to school vibe” does it more for me. Feeling recharged and fired up after summer. I’ve been trying to map out the year and plan and I just haven’t felt connected to this energy of getting things done and moving forward in a more masculine energy.

So I decided to let go of what I thought I should be doing and instead listen to my intuition and heart’s desires. My soul knows better. I love embracing winter and it’s yin energy. So lots of cosy times filled with self care, creative projects, reading books, and just a general sense of living in the now. Being more in tuned with my heart than my brain. Sometimes, you need to give yourself time to retreat so you can bloom later on. Making memories and filling my heart with joy. Because in the end, that’s what we’ll remember. Play time and adventures taking the front seat. Sitting in front of my laptop trying to be creative and inspired wasn’t really working for me the past few weeks. So I started looking for the spark of inspiration and creativity in other places- the ones that come with more ease and exploring new ones.

So I filled my days with lots of yin and some yang energy, finding a balance that works for me.

Snow adventures bring me exactly what I need from a more active energy. Meetings with the sun and blue skies after days under the clouds. It’s never really a question of grey days – but just being at the wrong altitude. So whenever I can, I take steps to hit the road for the wild snow capped mountains. Such a magical moment when you suddenly find yourself out of the heavy fog and into a winter wonderland of blue and white on the horizon. Breathing the wild air and that feeling of immensity surrounded by majestic mountain peaks. It’s my zone of bliss and inspiration. It’s how I recharge. I’ve given myself permission for just that. For play and gathering experiences. Embracing winter.

Sometimes you have to slow down, stand still to listen and receive the guidance, flow and vibrations. When you get to that place, you’ll be surprised at how things come your way because your energy shifted big time. I’ve been noticing the positive change.

Let yourself be lead by your soul. Treasure the seasons and experiences.

What is one thing that hasn’t been working for you?

How can you embrace winter and it’s energy?

Are you feeling aligned with your heart?